It is not easy to try something that should help you. Everyone believes they are self aware, but most of us really have no clue what we need. I am trying something new and I think that it will help, but it might get me to conclusions I really don't want. I am no where near there yet, but I have never felt closer. It's kind of like watching a little kid be afraid of heights, but attempt to go to the edge. They are at least 20 feet from the edge, but they feel like they are falling off a cliff. That sums up how I am feeling.
Sadly, I cannot say that because it means that I am not giving this try a chance. I really am though, but what ever happens I know I won't quite be the same. Which really isn't a bad thing, but maybe it is. Don't you love the ability to turn a positive into a negative and back again with a comma and the word "but". So very simple.
Still trying to figure out a few thoughts. They won't go away and it really is freaking me out. I can honestly say that I am lost when it comes to those thoughts because they will happen when I am least expecting it and on a completely different topic. I find myself having those thoughts having emotions tied with them and they needing to shake them out of my head. It is amazing how crazy that sounds when I read out loud to myself. Blog, I hope you know that I am revealing everything and nothing all at the same time. It is nice to get them out.
Just remember trying is important.
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